A Tiny Offering

I'm in the hospital. They've checked everything and the general conclusion is I need to learn how to eat again. After catching every virus but the flu that's come my way practically since becoming pregnant this time around, and being too strict on myself in trying to eat the right things (and sometimes ending up not eating because I couldn't find them or stomach them), I haven't gained enough weight at all this pregnancy and my body is suffering the consequences. Thankfully our baby girl is fine, but I'm not. I'm now trying to eat with little to no restrictions on myself and just get my body to accept me eating again. It's hard with all the symptoms I'm having but I must do it. I must get better. I must gain weight. I must get out of this hospital and back to my family. I want to hold my little boy's hand so bad, but I also know in order to be able to hold both his and my daughter's hands in a few months, I must recover now. 

And so I lie in this hospital bed, trying to eat and drink and rest as much as possible. My body tells me I'm still not there yet. I still get dizzy just from a short walk to and from the bathroom. Sometimes I get dizzy just sitting up. So I will not push myself to move too much. I will continue to rest and eat, as I wait and pray for the day that my body tells me I am well enough to go home and be with my husband and son and pets. 

Thank you all for praying. I sure need it now. I cry every day, though I try to stay strong.

A chaplain visited me this morning. She reminded me of the woman in the Bible who brought a mere two coins to offer, and though it seemed like so little, it was all she had, and God was incredibly pleased with her offering. 

I have determined that that is me. I have so little to offer God and others in my life. My poor health always gets in the way of me being and doing all I want, even when I'm not laid up in a hospital bed. It's always been this way, all my life. Often I've wondered why God even wants me alive if my life is such a small offering. But for whatever reason, He accepts my tiny offering and blesses it for His glory. I have to trust Him to do that. I must not forget that.